Tsukia
07-10-2009, 11:37 PM
I seem to keep coming back here after in some cases months of forgetting about this useful site. I don't remember when my last post was so here is the updates:
Last august me and my husband (10 year relationship; 3.5 married) separated.
December I started a workout program and was starting to get my independence back. I was feeling good about myself and where I was going.
Christmas day, started new relationship
End of January found out I was about a month pregnant; Unplanned, unexpected and honestly I didn't know how my new guy would take it.
He took it well mainly he said "It takes two" which helped. It made me feel like I wasn't alone in it. March we officially moved in together (By the time I found out I had did the gf migration of stuff; February his roomies all but kicked me out;)
Despite everything my A1C's have been right on target, best since diagnosis actually. My mother joked I should stay pregnant lol.
Now sitting at 29 weeks I am finding myself with more often then not emotional lows and self doubt. I feel weak and pathetic because of the limitations that this pregnancy is causing. I am lucky if I can stand long enough to do the dishes or shower. Reaching almost anything seems to be becoming a chore and the constant adjustments and appointments are making me feel like I have no control.
Issues sleeping due to baby's position, bathroom breaks, heat (I live in a semi-desert and it is summer) as well as nights when I just can't clear my head enough to sleep. If I nap more then two hours I wake up somewhere in the range of 2 for a blood sugar.
I feel so lost and even with people trying to help i can't help feeling fat, I have gained 40+ pounds since I found out and that was after loosing 15. On top of that every one else I see that is pregnant seems to be smiling and having a good time of it. It makes me feel like there is something wrong with me.
If anyone has any advice or can tell me of their experiences of being a pregnant diabetic (not gestational) I would welcome it, as I feel so alone and lost.
Last august me and my husband (10 year relationship; 3.5 married) separated.
December I started a workout program and was starting to get my independence back. I was feeling good about myself and where I was going.
Christmas day, started new relationship
End of January found out I was about a month pregnant; Unplanned, unexpected and honestly I didn't know how my new guy would take it.
He took it well mainly he said "It takes two" which helped. It made me feel like I wasn't alone in it. March we officially moved in together (By the time I found out I had did the gf migration of stuff; February his roomies all but kicked me out;)
Despite everything my A1C's have been right on target, best since diagnosis actually. My mother joked I should stay pregnant lol.
Now sitting at 29 weeks I am finding myself with more often then not emotional lows and self doubt. I feel weak and pathetic because of the limitations that this pregnancy is causing. I am lucky if I can stand long enough to do the dishes or shower. Reaching almost anything seems to be becoming a chore and the constant adjustments and appointments are making me feel like I have no control.
Issues sleeping due to baby's position, bathroom breaks, heat (I live in a semi-desert and it is summer) as well as nights when I just can't clear my head enough to sleep. If I nap more then two hours I wake up somewhere in the range of 2 for a blood sugar.
I feel so lost and even with people trying to help i can't help feeling fat, I have gained 40+ pounds since I found out and that was after loosing 15. On top of that every one else I see that is pregnant seems to be smiling and having a good time of it. It makes me feel like there is something wrong with me.
If anyone has any advice or can tell me of their experiences of being a pregnant diabetic (not gestational) I would welcome it, as I feel so alone and lost.