jbsmomto1
10-17-2009, 06:15 AM
Well some of you already know me a scared, whiney baby, but thats not really me, I am usually quite tough.
Anyway I am 38 years old, a single mom to a 6 year old little girl with pituitary dwarfism, Jillian stands slightly less then 3 ft tall and weighs about 26 lbs, if you saw her you would assume she was about 3 years old, not 6 and going to be 7 new years eve. I wasn't ever supposed to have children, I have 1 tube and 1 ovary and the tube I have left is/was blocked. You can imagine my shock and disbelief when I got my pink line. She is my everything. Though she is also cause a few of my most frusterating moments as well lol.
We have 2 dogs, Quincy, is a true hairless chinese crested. Yes he is truly hairless, he has some on his tail, his ears and his feet but other than that my boy is totally naked. You can probably guess how much he hates our canadian winters lol.
Ruby is our 10 month old Monster, actually is a mini poodle but she is a monster. She is very mischevious and gets herself into heaps of trouble. I never knew how much 1 dble roll of toilet paper would stretch around my entire house, until she showed me...several times.
And then there is me, I am as a I said a single mom but I love it. I also run a family daycare so I am busy. Thankfully this has allowed me to keep my daughter out of daycare and allowed me to witness all her firsts before anyone else. I am a pretty happy person most time, but don't bother with me in the mornings until I have had at least 1 coffee and time to wake up.
I have been healthy my entire life, up until about 2.5 years ago, I started having issues with 3rd cranial nerve pasley, but it only effects my eyes, but in the orst way possible. My left eye gets paralyzed on the upgaze as well as now the side way glance. Its very painful but more so I think b/c with my eye paralyzed I have issues focussing which of course causes a migraine. The first time it hit I was just 36 and 2 days old, it lasted about 2 weeks and went away on its own. The 2nd time it last a week, the 3rd time a month and now I get re-occurances about monthly that last until the dr gives me pred. That's where my troubles began with diabetes (I think, or at least I blame the pred).
I only started with pred in April of this year, the first time I felt better than I had in such a long time, I had so much energy it was great lol. 50mgs for 7 days. The 2nd time same dose was when I realized that something was wrong with me, went to the dr and he said well pred will do that to you and away I went. The sypmtoms I had never left after thn 2nd rd they stayed. The 3rd time, the pred didn't even work anymore and they refused to increase the dose. Thankfully I haven't needed pred since July.
July 21 I went to my dr for some really weird feelings, I had a yeast infection that wouldn't go away and I was feeling really odd, but everytime I described it, I felt like it sounded like I was going nuts. Finally a nurse said to me, ask the dr to check your blood sugars and he obliged (thankfully)....a few days later I got a call that my glucose levals were high and to take b12. I assumed that the b12 was going to help lower my sugars but when a week later after taking b12 like crazy there was no change I went back and learned that the b12 wasn't supposed to help my sugars but I was b12 defieicnt ...ok that answered 1 question. They did a finger stick and checked my glucose it was before lunch but about 3 hrs after breakfast it was 10.4. Not so bad but still high I guess. Sent me home with a meter to test and said to test 6x a day before and after each meal, which I did and never ever got readings lower than 8 before a meal and sometimes as high as 14 after. Again didn't know what I was looking for so let it go. Went back for another a1c less than 2 months after the first and my aic had dropped but my fasting was 9.7 ....they started me on metformin which was terrible, I had gas so bad even the dog wouldn't sleep with me anymore lol. I had stomaches that would leave me withered on the floor. For a few weeks I tried this drug and each time I took it I felt worse. Than they though well diamicron might be better and I swear the devil made this drug...I took it for 5 days but vomited so bad teh entire time, couldn't keep anything inside of me and sugars got high. You guys know the rest if not search me and you'll find out.
So who am I?
I am mommy to 1 amazing little girl
I am owner of my own business and I love my job
I am handler of 2 dogs
I am a sparks leader (youngest girl guides in Canada) (Sept-may)
I am soccer coach in the summer (may-aug)
I am a music love (the louder the better)
I am a clean freak
I am a faithful house, grey's, private practise, ghost whisperer viewer
and now I am a type 2 diabetic...Though I admit that I have my doubts and think they have made a horrible mistake and I'm just fine, I sit here with my pen and trying to talk myself into giving it to mysefl. I am prepared to feel whatever I feel, I am ready to feel better. I guess if I start feeling better when getting lower numbers I will have to admit the the drs truly do know more than I do. It's my body and I have had it for 38 years but yet they still know more about it and how it works than I do.
I do think I gave myself this disease, I drank a lot of pop, little water, and lots of french vanilla caps..I skipped meals sometimes for an entire day, I never really worried about eating b/c after all I had been healthy my entire life....I think my body got used to so much sugar and trying to deal with it that my pancreas is tried and wants/needs a little vacation, I fear though that it might never return from said vacation.
So thats my intro...how do you like me now?? LOL. I'm a really nice person, sometimes obstinate and stubborn, I wanna be right but I can be wrong too (as long as it not often) when nervous or afraid I try to be funny. My first priority is to be here for my little girl. I never had either of my parents growing up and I will be dammed if my child grows up the way I did, she deserves better!
WOW this is way longer than I thought, so sorry about that...yeah I liek to talk to lol.
Anyway I am 38 years old, a single mom to a 6 year old little girl with pituitary dwarfism, Jillian stands slightly less then 3 ft tall and weighs about 26 lbs, if you saw her you would assume she was about 3 years old, not 6 and going to be 7 new years eve. I wasn't ever supposed to have children, I have 1 tube and 1 ovary and the tube I have left is/was blocked. You can imagine my shock and disbelief when I got my pink line. She is my everything. Though she is also cause a few of my most frusterating moments as well lol.
We have 2 dogs, Quincy, is a true hairless chinese crested. Yes he is truly hairless, he has some on his tail, his ears and his feet but other than that my boy is totally naked. You can probably guess how much he hates our canadian winters lol.
Ruby is our 10 month old Monster, actually is a mini poodle but she is a monster. She is very mischevious and gets herself into heaps of trouble. I never knew how much 1 dble roll of toilet paper would stretch around my entire house, until she showed me...several times.
And then there is me, I am as a I said a single mom but I love it. I also run a family daycare so I am busy. Thankfully this has allowed me to keep my daughter out of daycare and allowed me to witness all her firsts before anyone else. I am a pretty happy person most time, but don't bother with me in the mornings until I have had at least 1 coffee and time to wake up.
I have been healthy my entire life, up until about 2.5 years ago, I started having issues with 3rd cranial nerve pasley, but it only effects my eyes, but in the orst way possible. My left eye gets paralyzed on the upgaze as well as now the side way glance. Its very painful but more so I think b/c with my eye paralyzed I have issues focussing which of course causes a migraine. The first time it hit I was just 36 and 2 days old, it lasted about 2 weeks and went away on its own. The 2nd time it last a week, the 3rd time a month and now I get re-occurances about monthly that last until the dr gives me pred. That's where my troubles began with diabetes (I think, or at least I blame the pred).
I only started with pred in April of this year, the first time I felt better than I had in such a long time, I had so much energy it was great lol. 50mgs for 7 days. The 2nd time same dose was when I realized that something was wrong with me, went to the dr and he said well pred will do that to you and away I went. The sypmtoms I had never left after thn 2nd rd they stayed. The 3rd time, the pred didn't even work anymore and they refused to increase the dose. Thankfully I haven't needed pred since July.
July 21 I went to my dr for some really weird feelings, I had a yeast infection that wouldn't go away and I was feeling really odd, but everytime I described it, I felt like it sounded like I was going nuts. Finally a nurse said to me, ask the dr to check your blood sugars and he obliged (thankfully)....a few days later I got a call that my glucose levals were high and to take b12. I assumed that the b12 was going to help lower my sugars but when a week later after taking b12 like crazy there was no change I went back and learned that the b12 wasn't supposed to help my sugars but I was b12 defieicnt ...ok that answered 1 question. They did a finger stick and checked my glucose it was before lunch but about 3 hrs after breakfast it was 10.4. Not so bad but still high I guess. Sent me home with a meter to test and said to test 6x a day before and after each meal, which I did and never ever got readings lower than 8 before a meal and sometimes as high as 14 after. Again didn't know what I was looking for so let it go. Went back for another a1c less than 2 months after the first and my aic had dropped but my fasting was 9.7 ....they started me on metformin which was terrible, I had gas so bad even the dog wouldn't sleep with me anymore lol. I had stomaches that would leave me withered on the floor. For a few weeks I tried this drug and each time I took it I felt worse. Than they though well diamicron might be better and I swear the devil made this drug...I took it for 5 days but vomited so bad teh entire time, couldn't keep anything inside of me and sugars got high. You guys know the rest if not search me and you'll find out.
So who am I?
I am mommy to 1 amazing little girl
I am owner of my own business and I love my job
I am handler of 2 dogs
I am a sparks leader (youngest girl guides in Canada) (Sept-may)
I am soccer coach in the summer (may-aug)
I am a music love (the louder the better)
I am a clean freak
I am a faithful house, grey's, private practise, ghost whisperer viewer
and now I am a type 2 diabetic...Though I admit that I have my doubts and think they have made a horrible mistake and I'm just fine, I sit here with my pen and trying to talk myself into giving it to mysefl. I am prepared to feel whatever I feel, I am ready to feel better. I guess if I start feeling better when getting lower numbers I will have to admit the the drs truly do know more than I do. It's my body and I have had it for 38 years but yet they still know more about it and how it works than I do.
I do think I gave myself this disease, I drank a lot of pop, little water, and lots of french vanilla caps..I skipped meals sometimes for an entire day, I never really worried about eating b/c after all I had been healthy my entire life....I think my body got used to so much sugar and trying to deal with it that my pancreas is tried and wants/needs a little vacation, I fear though that it might never return from said vacation.
So thats my intro...how do you like me now?? LOL. I'm a really nice person, sometimes obstinate and stubborn, I wanna be right but I can be wrong too (as long as it not often) when nervous or afraid I try to be funny. My first priority is to be here for my little girl. I never had either of my parents growing up and I will be dammed if my child grows up the way I did, she deserves better!
WOW this is way longer than I thought, so sorry about that...yeah I liek to talk to lol.