Creepy feeling....

[Cinnabon]

Hey everyone...

I needed to share this, please don't think Im creepy. As I was sitting today watching tv I had this weird, creepy feeling and a surge of throughts just come over me. It was just the thought of dieing at an early age, the thought of not being around for my daughter, and just feeling really scared. Is this too weird? :(

[lgvincent]

I don't think so. We're all going to die at some point (except for me, of course, since I'm planning on becoming a vampire). Each day we are getting closer to our last day. I've often thought about what the end will be like, knowing you're taking your last breath, and things like that.

[camjen1]

This reminds me of a dream I had back in 2001. We were in the process of moving and had to stay with a family friend. One of the nights there I had a dream that our family friend was having a heart attack. He started to grab his chest and made this face as if he was in such pain. I remember that he had a bright yellow shirt on. ABout a week after this dream we were all up bright and early getting ready for a shopping trip (Christmas time) and our family friend said that he couldn't feel his chin nor his arms. My mom who is a nurse said he needed to go to the ER. They packed him in the car and headed to the ER. It was confirmed he was on his way to having a heart attack and he was trasferred an hour away to a good heart hospital where he underwent surgery. I was very distraut because I remembered this dream and felt it was my fault. To make things even weirder he was wearing a bright yellow Nike shirt that day.

[koblenz]

OK Sandi, now THAT's just creepy!

Cin,
I think it is normal to have thoughts like this every once in a while. The point is to do something positive with those thoughts. Don't let them get you down, use them to motivate yourself into doing something that will keep you around even longer; if nothing else than for your daughters sake!

When I start to feel that way, I think of all the wonderful years I can have with my wife. And just think of all the years of teasing you guys I would miss? Oh no, that alone is worth sticking around for! :D :-

[LauRa Lu]

:eek: The creepy thing is that I was just about to post something pretty much the same but read this first!!!! :eek:

I had a dreadful night last night and still feel kind of shaken up by it now :o
I had the worst nigthmare ever and woke up feeling dreadfull and crying my eyes out... it just seemed so real. I dreamt about my funeral :( There was no reason why I'd died but I knew it was just because I was diabetic :confused: which was horrible!!!
Every one I knew was there, all dressed in black and the church was really dark, I was kind of looking on from above but I was perfectly fine and felt like I shouldnt be dead and it shouldnt be happening, only I couldn't do anything and couldn't move. My dad was crying and showing emotion but quiet, my mum was weeping so bad and I just wanted to stop it all but couldn't. I wanted to go and make them laugh but just couldn't do anything. Everyone was really sad and saying they didn't know how to go on.. it felt so real and I just wanted to tell them that even if I was dead just be happy and live life, which is what they know i'd want in real life but not in this dream for some reason... I couldnt' do anything!... it was evil and every bit of it was so real... I woke up and had to check I wasn't dead!... I feel dreadful.

I know it was only a dream but I feel like It really happened and kind of feel in shock, I feel real stupid too.

The last thing I did before I went to bed last night was read the thread somewhere on here about all the problems diabetics get... maybe its coz i went to sleep with all that in my head.

I'm usually a VERY positive person about diabetes and life, but this really shook me up, I've never looked at it in such a negative way before.

[Barb]

Cin..I am with the others on this one..it's not creepy at all..we all have some creepy feelings come over us at times...I know I sure do..sometime while DH and I are watching TV he will look at me and ask what's wrong that I look deep in thought..and I know I am thinking of death or something about getting very sick...

Cam I can relate to your dream....I had a picture of my Nephew on the wall I had just put it up I know it was on the hook and even tugged at it making sure...I walked a way and the picture fell...i put it back and again it fell and this great need came over me to call my Brother...I did call right then I remember it July 16th...3:45 in the afternoon..seems my 9 year old nephew fell on the Grill and burnt both hands..not bad burns thank goodness but enough to make them blister...

[Harold]

Is this too weird? Perfectly normal part of realizing ones own mortallity. Which is why people make plans to take care of loved ones in case something happens to them. Also sells a lot of life insurance. ;)

[Cinnabon]

You guys always do it for me, You really do!

Wow that was just great to wake up and see all your responses, comforting these thoughts I was having. THANK YOU!!!!!!
I can agree w/ Laula LU, It happened a short while after reading that post. It is reality, but just shook me up a bit too.

LOVE YOU ALL!! (Wish I could hug u all!!!)

[Lee73]

Hi Cinnabon,

Yes, I think we all face feelings like that (with or without diabetes). I know when I start to think about my own mortality somewhat morbidly I try to watch a Woody Allen Movie as fast as I can (any one will do). Woody Allen always manages to work in his hypochondriacal (is that a word?) fear of death and musings about mortality into his movies and usually to very comic effect. He's always rambling something like: "I'm dying, I'm going to die. Jesus, it's not fair." etc. Somehow his neurotic ramblings about his own mortality always cheer me up about my own. :nerd:

[rzrbks]

Harold
Originally Posted by Cinnabon
Is this too weird?

Perfectly normal part of realizing ones own mortallity. Which is why people make plans to take care of loved ones in case something happens to them. Also sells a lot of life insurance.

Ahh, Harold has the logical reason with the logical conclusions. :thumbsup: