I'm so ****...

[Cookie]

You guys have to help me get my head sorted out...

I have been diabetic for 2 years now and I would say over the past few weeks or so I have just been so lazy. Not bothering to test as much as I should, missing the odd injection here and there, eating things I shouldn't be eating etc. :s:

I need to get back on track. We are hoping to start trying for a baby at the end of the year, and simply will not do it unless my blood sugar is fantastic. But it's not even just for that, I need to just sort it out for me too... :frown:

Please help - or lecture as you think appropriate :(

[am1977]

First off, I am not going to yell or lecture you. I think you are doing a good job of being hard on yourself as it is :banghead: . I think you need to ease up on yourself seriously. Being diabetic is not easy...we have been dealt an unfair hand in life :deal: and it truly sucks. :thumpdown It's not like we can just forget about it or put in on the back burner...no matter what, it's with us 24/7. Saying all that, I think it's important that you take steps to get back on track. Admitting that you know there's a problem is a good first step. Next might be making a plan to do better. Testing can be a pain, no pun intended, but maybe plan to test once more per day for a while...and then build up there. As far as diet goes, it might be good to talk with a registered dietician...you can still eat some of your favorites if they are built into your meal plan :eating: . You might also want to condsider seeing a therapist. Sometimes it's good to speak with someone about issues that our troubling us that would be too difficult to discuss with family our friends.

Hang in there... I think many of us can understand what you are going through...so know that we are here if you need us. :wink:

take care.

[TAutry]

Hi Cookie,

Most of us stray from the narrow way, from time to time. We get tired of sticking our fingers, watching our carbs, living by numbers and medication schedules. Let's not even mention injections!

The basic fact is, if you want to live a relatively healthy life, free of or with limited diabetic complications, you have to do all of the above and more. For you, in particular, if you want to have a baby and live to enjoy watching him or her grow up then you have to get back on track.

How do you go about it? The Nike way: "Just Do It". Really, taking care of your diabetes is both a selfish and a selfless activity. It is selfish in that you are doing something for yourself that on the surface really benefits no one else. You are checking Your blood sugar. You are taking Your medication. You are eating when and what You should. However, taking care of yourself allows you to be around and able to help the people about whom you care. That is the selfless part.

So, go out there and be selfish. Look after yourself. Go out there and be selfless. Look after yourself.

Travis

[2Cert]

Cookie, I'm in the same place now myself. It's been almost 20 years since I became diabetic and this happens to me every now and then :stupido2: We're just human and this is just like getting tired of anything, we rebel! If it were so easy to stay on the straight and narrow of diabetic control then seeing a doctor regularly would not be needed and there would be no such thing as complications. You know what you need to do and I have faith you (as well as I) will soon get over our short rebellion and back to doing what's needed :)

[archimeech]

Hi Cookie,

Most of us stray from the narrow way, from time to time. We get tired of sticking our fingers, watching our carbs, living by numbers and medication schedules. Let's not even mention injections!

Travis

Call me Tramp, when it comes to being a stray in regards to Diabetes. Or Rebel without a Clue, or just plain lazy dumba$$.

Cookie, we all get low on emotional energy every now and then when it comes to this ****. Don't dwell on it, just:
take your life into your own hands before it's taken away from you completely..........

that's all we can do :)

[duck]

"A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step..." Take that step. :rock:

[Cinnabon]

hey Cookie....
As you see it happens to all of us. I'm glad you are asking for help and we are here. I just have 2 things for you....

Do you want complications in your life for YOU and while you are trying to conceive a child? (going Blind, amputations, nerve damage, just to name a few)

When you become a mom, don't you wanna be there for first steps,school years, graduations, weddings, and grandchildren?


Ill take it you will say NO #1 and YES to #2... Like Duck said,
Take that STEP!!!

Were here for ya!

[kcope]

I am in the same place right now. Not testing not injecting and not eating right.

I'll make a deal with you, I will get back on track with you. Let's do it together.

[koblenz]

Hey, Cookie, we all get sick and tired of this. Maybe you need a "mini-vacation" for a day or two. How about this... see if your spouse will take your diabetes for a day or two. What do I mean?

Make him/her worry about remember to give the injection (although you might want to give it yourself, my wife is TERRIBLE at it... OUCH, but bless her heart she tries). Make them remember to come check your BS. Have them plan the meal, add up the carbs, and calculate the dose. Etc, etc, etc. However we all know you cannot take a complete vacation, but this helps me sometimes.

My wife will do this for a Saturday or a weekend, and it kind of lets me "pretend" I am a normal person (OK, I opened the door, let me have it) for just a little while. Then, back on the horse. As a side benefit, my wife appreciates it too... she says it really gives her a better understanding of the **** I have to go through everyday.

Anyway, you can get back on track, of that I am sure.

[Cookie]

Thank you guys... I'm sure I will be able to get back on track, it's just so BLOODY annoying sometimes isn't it??!

But it's not going to go away, and I'm only going to make things worse for myself by trying to pretend it might go away if I don't think about it!!

[gettingby]

Hang in there Cookie. You know that you've gotten off track. The first step is admitting to that so you've gotten that step out of the way. Just take it day by day and know that we are here to listen and to help.
Now, off topic:
QUOTE=koblenz]
My wife will do this for a Saturday or a weekend, and it kind of lets me "pretend" I am a normal person (OK, I opened the door, let me have it) for just a little while. Then, back on the horse. As a side benefit, my wife appreciates it too... she says it really gives her a better understanding of the **** I have to go through everyday.

Anyway, you can get back on track, of that I am sure.[/QUOTE]
Sorry but koblenz = normal does not compute (yes, I would say the same thing if it were Duck or Meech) :aetsch: Love you guys and you know it.

[Middle Aged Man]

Cookie, that was a great thread to start. I think we've probably all been there. Know what? You have the right to knock off for a day or two. Yes, there is a risk, but it's your risk, and if you need to take it, then take it. It's far less risky than trying to beat the yellow light turning red or trying to rush to your next destination in heavy traffic.

However, it can get overwhelming . . . especially with all the other pieces of life that get thrown at us. You can deal with those anxieties, too, or the depressive side of things.

The fact that you talked about it rather than wallowing in it speaks volumes about your character. You're interested in doing what's right, but it can get to you. So, you have three choices:

1) Take a break, and come back;
2) See a doc or shrink and deal with the anxieties or depressive issues that you are going through.
3) Give up and suffer more.

It's clear you'll take path 1 or 2. Know what? They are the best choices. So, you're doing good even while you're being bad!

Keep on truckin! :vroam:

[Cookie]

Cookie, that was a great thread to start. I think we've probably all been there. Know what? You have the right to knock off for a day or two. Yes, there is a risk, but it's your risk, and if you need to take it, then take it. It's far less risky than trying to beat the yellow light turning red or trying to rush to your next destination in heavy traffic.

However, it can get overwhelming . . . especially with all the other pieces of life that get thrown at us. You can deal with those anxieties, too, or the depressive side of things.

The fact that you talked about it rather than wallowing in it speaks volumes about your character. You're interested in doing what's right, but it can get to you. So, you have three choices:

1) Take a break, and come back;
2) See a doc or shrink and deal with the anxieties or depressive issues that you are going through.
3) Give up and suffer more.

It's clear you'll take path 1 or 2. Know what? They are the best choices. So, you're doing good even while you're being bad!

Keep on truckin! :vroam:


Middle Aged Man - do you know what? YOU'RE GOOD!!! :star:

I will get back on track, it's definitely just a phase... You know, I'm always better when I visit this forum regularly! (I should make this my homepage! ;) )

[Dewey]

At first, I wasn't going to reply, because of worry that others might take what I have to say the wrong way. I think it should be said, though, and taken as just a thought...

I'm not going to get on Any soap box, cause like the others, I've been there myself (wanting to feel :hahaha: "normal" - what's that anyway!? :1eye: - eating things I want....etc., getting angry at high numbers and over-correcting...). If I do those things, then undoubtedly, sugars will and do suffer. If I get into a "depressive funk," I just think of those with conditions worse than my own (such as Cancer patients who Want to get better - but may or may not, people who have suffered severe injuries and cannot walk, see, etc.), and climb out of that "hole" real quick! While some get irritated with those of us who think that way, it's Our way of dealing with it, just as others have their styles. No One way of dealing is right or wrong, but Each should be considered. Hope this helps, and hope you get to feeling better soon, Cookie! :shakehand

[Kady38]

I have problems testing as often as I should and don't do it sometimes.
My fingers get sore, and with a day care I am contantly using and washing my hands so I hate the sore fingers.
Sometimes I am just not hungry at meals so I skipped the meal and my shot.
I did test though to make sure my sugar wasn't high.
My doctor does major blood testing on me every visit every 6 mo now 3 mo the first yr. If your doctor does this your numbers will be known anyway.
So, the sky doesn't fall if you fail to test.

I would get it together before planning a baby. Some diabetics do well some have problems, just like non diabetics and pregnacy all are different, look for a a OB-GYN that has had experience with diabetics. Good luck
THE MOST WONDERFUL FEELING IN THE WORLD FOR ME IS TO HOLD A BABY.
My sister had a baby with no major complications. A healthly 8 lb boy. She was a TI. She didn't have morning sickness or feel bad and only gained 15 pounds during pregnacy and 6 hr labor, normal delivery. That was a good pregancy for anyone.

[Middle Aged Man]

Kady - Can't you use an alternate test site, then? Just curious.


I have problems testing as often as I should and don't do it sometimes.
My fingers get sore, and with a day care I am contantly using and washing my hands so I hate the sore fingers.
Sometimes I am just not hungry at meals so I skipped the meal and my shot.
I did test though to make sure my sugar wasn't high.
My doctor does major blood testing on me every visit every 6 mo now 3 mo the first yr. If your doctor does this your numbers will be known anyway.
So, the sky doesn't fall if you fail to test.

I would get it together before planning a baby. Some diabetics do well some have problems, just like non diabetics and pregnacy all are different, look for a a OB-GYN that has had experience with diabetics. Good luck
THE MOST WONDERFUL FEELING IN THE WORLD FOR ME IS TO HOLD A BABY.
My sister had a baby with no major complications. A healthly 8 lb boy. She was a TI. She didn't have morning sickness or feel bad and only gained 15 pounds during pregnacy and 6 hr labor, normal delivery. That was a good pregancy for anyone.