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[VanDamage]

iv had diabetes since september and the so called honeymoon took effect since october.since then its been almost 6 months and still on the honeymoon but iv been kinda lost cause i dont take my #'s as often cause it comes down and i eat junk again and lately my hands have like a pins and needles feeling and my sugars been up and i dont carry my monitor or glucose pills any more. its like i forgot im diabetic? do you guys/girls go through this.i feel like if i carry all this stuff and talk about diabetes alot im complaining and dont want that.am i in ignorance again? i go on the forums alot and dont say much and dont feel like i am part of the diabetic group i quess.no one else im with has this disease and my fiance and her family go out to dinner alot and i go or i get into trouble with her and not bad trouble but its like she doesnt understand and they cook meals that would feed a horse and i dont have alot of self control. plus i got a new job and im on the run alot and do you guys/girls bring all your food with you cause if i have to do that i have to make lunch and dinner and my kidneys don work that good anymore and ihave to take urines tests all day today.i feel overwhelmed and dont know what to do.im not on insulin or meds. thanks guys for your help

[Cyborg]

Being diagnosed with diabetes is extremely shocking. Denial is one of the phases that alot of people go through, including myself. It sounds like you may be experiencing a little of this yourself. Once you accept the fact that it will not go away, you can begin working on getting control. It really is not that difficult, but you do have to be disciplined. Stick around, keep lurking and keep posting as we will be here to help if we can. You are not going through something unique to yourself.

[am1977]

First...{{{Big Hug}}} going out to you :)

I'm sorry that you are having such a rough time. It happens... it's not uncommon to want to forget or some might say deny having the problem. Dealing with it day after day, 24/7, can feel like a huge burden and then, lucky us :rolleyes:, we have to deal with other life issues on top of things.

Sometimes it's good having someone to talk to about these issues who's in a neutral position...have you ever thought about seeing a therapist or joining a support group? It may help you develop a plan to get back on track and also deal with the emotional side of this disease as well :top:.

As for your fiance', I would sit down with and explain to her your feelings. Don't assume she knows how you feel...b/c most likely she isn't completely aware of how you feel and what you are dealing with. Explain to her how important good nutrition is to managing your disease and ask her if it's something you can work on together. I'm sure she cares about you a lot and wants to help if she can.

Try to hang in there...we all have tough times, but we still manage to survive somehow.

Take care :)

[Cinnabon]

Van,
I remember talking w/ u a lot about your Diabetes. A lot of us here have gone thru this, I know I have. It seemed that if you don't talk or think about its OK.
I cant lie to you and tell you it is. Diabetes doesn't forgive and you have many chances to take control of it. Whomever is going to be at your side MUST understand and support you.
I always eat out, but make GREAT choices, Its not impossible. I really dislike IGNORANT people, such as that family that cooks all the time. Diabetes was not discovered yesterday, it has been around for LOTS of years. Its not like they have to cook something special for you, but they should d consider you ansd I think your GF has more to do with this than anything.

[Doetsch]

First I want to congratulate you on taking the steps to ask for help. That is a big step to get over this hump that you are in.

First, You need support in your life and you need to make sure that you follow your routine. Start with baby steps. If not, you may put your body at great risk. When I went through something similiar the doctor wanted me to keep food logs and test 8 times a day. When someone goes from doing nothing it is extremely hard to become uber Diabetic.

Start with testing a few times a day and keep an eye on what you eat and how your body reacts. Try to stay light on the things your body does not need until you get in better control but if you do make sure that you take insulin for it. One of the most dangerous things for a Diabetic is to not hink that you are Diabetic. My cousin did this and he ended up going from t2 to insulin dependent within 2 years of diagnosis due to not taking his meds and watching what he ate. he is regretting it now. Good luck to you and come back often for your questions.