Smack me back to reality

cheryl · #1 (**permalink**) 11-27-2007, 02:25 PM

Ok, I got highly upset last night as I looked at myself and my diminshing body in the mirror, my arms look so thin, it is making me sick to look at myself anymore.....I don't know what to do, well I decided I am eating again, so I ate, but I didn't measure my chips out, I kept eating them and eating them and eating them and eating them, till the bag was all all gone....

Then I fell asleep......stupid yes....well had a nice or not nice 310 in the morning or at 4am when reality set back in like what the **** are you doing Cheryl, so i corrected well alot less then i technically need and of course I was 120 three hours later....god I hate this **** sensitivity....take a bit to start bringing it down sometimes but if I bolus what I should yea, ok, I'd probably plumit...yes I am re working my rates and what not, it's just not a good time to skip meals since I am withering away to a bare nothing....

Then of course I am tired here lately but I only been getting 5 hrs or less sleep sometimes 6, I used to do good on 7 hrs or more, so that might be it, I mean I am so active and I don't feel weak but now that I think about it, if I get less then 6 hrs I am groggy.....tired irritable...oyyy...

It's so hard when my body has done another 360 on me just when I got things down and decided it wants to need less insulin again....I can't keep testing rates, because of the food loss, I am way too thin I mean seriously...and ok I talked myself out of that before, and did it, thinking ok when you are set then you can eat and really eat nope, then it wants to change again....oyyy

Anyway, I am tired of it all right now, I am sleeping tonight, LOL.....and I am going to bolus correctly LOL>.....if I do overdo, take some more insulin cheryl duh......

The problem seems to be that the more weight I loose this viscious cycle of keeping to change it around yet again, I swear I had it set, then a couple of weeks ago boom, but I was ignoring it, but the lows, and the eating and eating just to keep level, but then I thought stupidly this will make me gain weight NOPE, I lost 5 more pounds what the ****.....I mean seriously....

I don't think it is my thyroid, cause I have symptoms of hyper or hypo, but when you put the two together with my symptoms, I'd be both, so it can't be that, cause i am cold, insulin sensitve and loosing weight, and eating like a ravenous pig, and I have lighter periods....but some of the symptoms don't comply with the other symptoms of hyper and hypo.....plus while I was loosing weight even back in May, I tested fine.....confused yes....insurance is gone right at the moment....I just don't want to spend that all out of pocket for nothing, so I am going to I guess just lower the basal and a bit, by .5 for each rate per pattern, cause I really can't can't can' stop eating.....not at this weight....oh I am tired of fixing constantly....**** weight loss, I swear I go thru everything....oh well it could be worse but I am so tired.....

Cheryl

bluesgirl102 · #2 (**permalink**) 11-27-2007, 03:15 PM

Yes Cheryl it still could be your thyroid. You need checked for thyroid antibodies, not just thyroid stimulating hormone, or T3. You can have antibodies against your thyroid but the thyroid stimulating hormone, and T3 be in range...please ask your doctor to check for antibodies. This very thing happened to me and sure enough my antibodies levels were extremely high but all my other levels were normal. This can happen with Hashimoto's thyroiditis.

Russyo · #3 (**permalink**) 11-27-2007, 03:43 PM

Cheryl, you just need to make out with me and it will all be ok. haha. Just messing with you.

Take it easy, we all slip up. Just get up, brush yourself off and get to doing what you do. You know how to do it, and when. It is frustrating but you just gotta stick to it.

And the making out is still there if you ever need it as a motivater. haha.

I sure hope people around here are going to handle my sense of humor ok.

MinimedPumper07 · #4 (**permalink**) 11-27-2007, 05:40 PM

ok im definitly suspicious i might have hypothyroid since i am just like you. i eat like a pig and cant get past the 145 lb mark. wtf! i also get tired a lot...

cheryl · #5 (**permalink**) 11-28-2007, 06:16 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by bluesgirl102

Yes Cheryl it still could be your thyroid. You need checked for thyroid antibodies, not just thyroid stimulating hormone, or T3. You can have antibodies against your thyroid but the thyroid stimulating hormone, and T3 be in range...please ask your doctor to check for antibodies. This very thing happened to me and sure enough my antibodies levels were extremely high but all my other levels were normal. This can happen with Hashimoto's thyroiditis.

How long do I got, I was wondering my flipping job has me working all the rest of the week instead of today....but Brent just took the good car and the van is all messed up....so I cannot get an appointment for myself till next Tuesday if I wanted to go....hmmm god that's gonna be a ton of money but I am just confused why the **** don't doc's test us for everything when they were supposed to grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr that makes me so mad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean I think i had signs then, and he just said to me I was too unstable to handle a pump...but if I am wacky or thyroid is off.....wouldn't anyone feel unstable LOL....

Cheryl

cheryl · #6 (**permalink**) 11-28-2007, 06:27 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Russyo

Cheryl, you just need to make out with me and it will all be ok. haha. Just messing with you.

Take it easy, we all slip up. Just get up, brush yourself off and get to doing what you do. You know how to do it, and when. It is frustrating but you just gotta stick to it.

And the making out is still there if you ever need it as a motivater. haha.

I sure hope people around here are going to handle my sense of humor ok.

Is that really all the answers to my problems

Cheryl

bluesgirl102 · #7 (**permalink**) 11-28-2007, 07:13 AM

Cheryl,

I don't know that you necessarily need to see the doctor yet. Can't you just call him and tell him to give you a lab requisition requesting the thyroid antibodies test?? I don't think you even have to fast for this. Oh, and if it's your primary care doctor that is telling you your thyroid is "fine" that explains it all. My PCP claimed for almost 3 years that he was "checking" my thyroid. I guess only looking at the TSH levels is what he considered "checking." Those were always normal at first. My endo is the one who told me he thought I had a thyroid problem and he is the one who ordered the thyroid antibody test. So, again, sometimes its worth it to see an endo if you are not.

JediSurfer · #8 (**permalink**) 11-28-2007, 07:21 AM

Cheryl,

I have designed and built a specialist pie catapult just for you.
It can catapult a pie over 4500 miles.
Look out a hail of weight gaining pies will be flying your way sometime soon.

peace n love

Rich

TenderVittleS · #9 (**permalink**) 11-28-2007, 09:42 AM

Hope you feel better soon. I personally think it could be something other than diabetes though. Get a thyroid test done ASAP and also get a second opinion from another doctor if you can.

cheryl · #10 (**permalink**) 11-28-2007, 12:25 PM

It was technically my endo, that did the test on me and tested the TSH-3 that was it, I just came back from this doc, and he did a complete thyroid and hormone test, I told him what about the antibodies, he told me that it would show up with all the test he is testing me for, OK.....well ummm so I will ask for a copy when I get my results back and you all let me know if I got tested for everything I was supposed to if not, time for another doc...LOL...he checked my heart rate and my what do you call that reflexes which are fine.....and also, well my BP, is now 104/60 wow.....wise I didn't get on the Ace yet, and I am 105.4 pounds so I hadn't lost any weight from 2 and a half weeks ago, but I purposely wore no makeup to show him that I have been breaking out like crazy, now, and if hormones are off, you do break out at the skin, he is also running some stomach tests.....so I dunno....we will see what he has to say, if I guess that I have been tested for it all...and I am fine then I guess I will just have to shoot myself.....LOL......and just keep on upping the amount of food I eat, the carbs and what not.....oyyy....I eat and eat and eat LOL...

Cheryl

cheryl · #11 (**permalink**) 11-28-2007, 12:26 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by JediSurfer

Cheryl,

I have designed and built a specialist pie catapult just for you.
It can catapult a pie over 4500 miles.
Look out a hail of weight gaining pies will be flying your way sometime soon.

peace n love

Rich

trust me I am debating whether to add donuts to my diet every day now. LOL...

Cheryl

shockme · #12 (**permalink**) 11-28-2007, 12:32 PM

oh cheryl! i hope the endo can get to the bottom of all this! (((((HUGS))))) trish

cathyd · #13 (**permalink**) 11-28-2007, 01:33 PM

you can have 10 pounds off my belly if you like

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Jan B · #14 (**permalink**) 12-07-2007, 11:59 AM

Cheryl

I hope you get this straightened out soon. This sounds silly, but seriously -- how do your EYES look?

NoraWI · #15 (**permalink**) 12-08-2007, 06:02 AM

It could be thyroid but I think it's because you are upping the carbs you eat instead of the fat. Fat contains twice as many calories per weight as carbs do. Eat more cheese. Add whipping cream instead of milk to your coffee. Eat avocados in your salads. STOP eating potato chips and stuff like that! Eating more carbs simply gets your diabetes out of control and makes you thirsty and peeing out nutrition and calories. That's why people lose weight when first diagnosed with DM!