[mrDiabetic]

Sometimes I do feel sad about why I got this terrible disease when I was 30. I look into my toddler's eyes and see hope to carry on for his sake. I don't want to die!

[cyberus]

Originally Posted by mrDiabetic

Sometimes I do feel sad about why I got this terrible disease when I was 30. I look into my toddler's eyes and see hope to carry on for his sake. I don't want to die!

As a newly diagnosed type 2 myself I think I can relate to what you are are feeling at the moment, I'm still having down times.
BUT!
My grandmother was type 2, she smoked 5 packs of pall mall unfiltered a day and was on huge doses of pain meds for a old injury .. she lived to age 88 and died in her sleep.
My mother IS type 2 and has been for nearly 20 yrs and isn't showing any signs of checking out anytime soon.
Diabetes isn't a automatic death sentence anymore, amputation is no longer a given.
There are lots of resources here to help you through this, it helped me, and it can help you too.

[jillybean]

I was diagnosed at age 25 (I will be 26 tomorrow). I haven't had ids yet, and I'm not going to lt this stop me. I'm taking more drastic measures than others, but I am determined to live a full and healthy life for the sake of my future family Determination and a positive attitude can take you a LONG way!

[jillrapp]

Living with diabetes can be overwhelming, upsetting, nerve wracking.... we can feel sorry for ourselves, upset that our spouses can have chocolate cake and ice cream while we in good conscience cannot, (at least not more than a few bites) we can feel guilty for letting it get out of control, we can feel estatic when we get a good HbA1c - but all in all, we're "here" and probably all have a few good people that love us and want us "here". Do the best that you can in any given day - and live knowing that with good control, you're probably healthier than 95% of the general population! Be well and never give up!

[jerryn]

Originally Posted by mrDiabetic

Sometimes I do feel sad about why I got this terrible disease when I was 30. I look into my toddler's eyes and see hope to carry on for his sake. I don't want to die!

Look on the bright side. For one the disease is manageable. Number 2 since you need checkups at least every 6 months you tend take take care of yourself. What if you were not diagnosed. You'd probably be like me, never go to the Dr. because your never sick. ****. A mole that looked harmless to me since I had it my entire life and was small.. I mean 1/8" diameter on my back. Well my wife bugged me and then at the 6 month checkup the Dr. made a dermotoligist appointment since she didn't like it either. Well I had to have it removed. It was precancerous. If I didn't have to go for a checkup every 6 months I would have let it go.
I think that because I have this disease I may live a healthier life. Plus I will excercise more, tend to eat lower carbs than if I wasn't diagnosed.

[rededmcm]

A lot of us inherit diabetes.Most of my family members on my mother's side in my generation have type 2 diabetes.
Make no mistake on this one point:unmanaged diabetes can
kill you and cause you a lot of misery.
Keeping our glucose levels low by diet,exercise and meds
is how you manage diabetes.A lot of blood glucose testing
is required for you to understand the effect of certain foods
on your glucose levels.
Advice: Forget the idiot ADA diet.Minimize carb intake.
Try to get your A1C under 6.0 and keep it there.
Managing the big D is not easy but it can be done.
Good luck
Eddie

[Alice]

While we are all at risk for side affects of diabetes, please remember that the group with the most risk is the group of diabetics that are "undiagnosed".

These are the people that tend to have the most serious damage to tissues and are often diagnosed after the damage has occured.

So, turn your thoughts around and realize you are one of the lucky ones. Knowledge is power. What you do with that knowledge is what benefits your family.

[DeusXM]

Who says you're going to die?

Well, ok, logically, we all are. One day. But it's up to you when that happens. Unlike someone with cancer, or AIDS, or meningitis, or cholera or whatever, YOU have a say in the matter. You have probably more choice than anyone else in the world with a chronic medical condition. You can take the tablets, do the exercise, eat the right diet, and if you do...there's absolutely no reason whatsoever why you should die because of diabetes.

You've also got an advantage over many of us here. You've got something to live for. You have kid, someone who you're going to see grow up, fall in love, graduate, become an adult...you've got someone who is going to give you the best motivation ever to look after yourself. You're going to want to still be around in 30 years time so you can see your kid get hitched, buy their own house, make you proud. It's not going to be 'easy', but it's perfectly possible if you want it to happen. The question is, do you want it to? And I think you already know the answer to that one. Good luck!

[buddy7]

Originally Posted by mrDiabetic

Sometimes I do feel sad about why I got this terrible disease when I was 30. I look into my toddler's eyes and see hope to carry on for his sake. I don't want to die!

Hey Mr D. We know how it can feel when you have this awful disease diabetes, the shock the anger, the confusion about what it means to your life now and for the future, its one of the progressive medical conditions, which you have a say in the matter, rather you live or die, I'm sure we like to choose the latter.

My advised to you, get in touch with your local diabetes health care team, who will give you emotional support, reassurance, and help you build your confidence in coping with your diabetes, you'll also get lots of support and encouragement from all of us on this site, who have the same problems as your-self, and willing to share them, as already some of the overwhelming responses you've got.

Every-time you look into your toddlers eyes, YES!! you must have hope to carry on living, just for he/she.

I get so incensed by your high running emotions, which, we all have from time to time, give your-self a chance and your young blood. life is sooooo precious.

B/7 ESSEX UK.

[Samantha]

Mr.D sorry your having a bad time with this . I too have bad times and newly dx a couple months ago .

Hope you get to feeling better soon .

[princesslinda]

MrD, its perfectly normal to feel sad about having diabetes. It does change our lives in many ways.....i'm almost 2 years in since diagnosis...and there are still days when I feel sad or afraid, but these are fewer and far between than in those early days after diagnosis.

I encourage you to come to the forums often...its here that I find hope, as there are so many here who've been dealing with diabetes MUCH longer than me....and they are doing well. Makes me think if they can do it, I can too! Also, its good to see you're not alone!

I feel that because i'm forced to take better care of myself since diagnosis, i'll probably live a longer life than I would have had I continued living the way I did before diabetes...in this way, I see it as somewhat of a mixed blessing.

You hang in there....these hard times will pass and you'll be feeling more hopeful soon.

[mrDiabetic]

Thank you so much. I feel better much better, I need to keep the carbs low, keep eating the pills keep being careful. And hope to see posts from you all.

[BrianSCohen]

MrD,

Feeling depressed is an entirely normal and appropriate feeling. There are even studies showing that depression is more common among diabetics. You need to keep reminding yourself that you are young and that with proper diet, exercise and medication you can live a long and healthy life. There is no reason that you won't look into your grandchildren's or greatgrandchildren's eyes and ask the same questions about your mortality.

[diabetestribe]

I too have a toddler, and I am doing this and learning to live with this primarily for him.