I hate monitoring!!!! Seriously? Who likes poking themselves 20 times a day? Ok well maybe 4-6 times a day. I'm hoping for a day when it will be easier. In the mean time I got a Fitbit and it has alarms on it. So I set it for each time I need to monitor so it buzzes on my wrist until I shut it off!! It's actually annoying but it seems to work for me..
So, after almost having a heart attack and dying, I realized I needed to do something. I enlisted the help of a Nutritionist who took me off everything overnight. No meat. No dairy. No gluten. No caffeine. Completely plant based. He told me that he could reverse my diabetes and get me off insulin and all my meds. Well, of course eating nothing brought down my blood sugars. So I went off the insulin again and everything else I was taking for cholesterol and neuropathy. The thing that I didn't understand was that my blood sugars had run at about 300-350. My A1c was 12. So my blood sugars only dropped to about the 200's and he was ok with that. So all I ate was lettuce and beans basically. I was starving and I was dropping weight fast but my sugars were still high. I had stopped going to my doctor. I relied solely on this nutritionist who was supposedly licensed and went to school at Columbia and did his clinicals at all these big medical schools. Yet I never saw a license or a diploma. At any rate...it was killing me. I was happy I lost 60 lbs. but in 3 months? I finally went to my doctor and he about killed me. In the meantime the so called nutritionist who I paid thru the nose for, picked up and left town. I was devastated and felt abandoned. I've never dedicated myself to anything only to find out it wasn't helping me at all.
I had a heart to heart with my doc and agreed to give his way a chance again. Somehow, something clicked. We put a new pill in and suddenly things started to even out. I made some serious changes in my diet. I started taking exercise seriously. I'm doing great now. Just hoping to find a network of support.
Today is a special day for my family. Not because we BBQ or go to the towns parade. But because I come from a very strong military family. Every man in my life has served. My son is now serving and my daughter is talking about joining the Navy next year. I was especially sad this year because no one was able to place flags on my Grandfather's grave this year, due to a very bad storm hitting Texas. He was a WWll vet and one of the greatest men I have ever known. I am very happy that my father (Army Vet), and mother were in attendance at the wreath laying at the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier today at Arlington. They had VIP seats and had a wonderful experience. I just wanted to take a moment and thank Every Vet In Every Branch and Every War and Peace Time too. Thank you for your service and sacrifice. Thank you to the spouses and children as well, you also sacrifice.
I honestly don't know why I didn't have this epiphany earlier in my life. Before the neuropathy and retinopathy set in. Before I gained a ton of weight and totally stopped taking care of myself.
I've said it a thousand times before. It so easy to do everything that the doctors tell you to do when you are pregnant and trying to save another life. Once I finished having children, I just stopped caring about myself and spent all my time caring for my kids needs. I never once thought about The Future....
What does that hold for me? Will I be here to see my children grow up and finish school and college and have their own children? What about when they are gone and have their own families? Will my quality of life be good? Will I be healthy and able to travel and do all the things that I had planned for myself?
I stopped monitoring, I stopped taking my meds, I stopped going to the doctor.
I started to die.....Mother's Day 2012 I ended up in the Cardiac ICU with DKA.
It's been a long road since that day and it was a horrifying wake up call for me.
I finally stopped denying and made a plan to be here for my children for as long as possible.
This is my journey.....my hopes and dreams and struggles and accomplishments and victories!!
I want to Inspire!! I want to be a beacon of hope and share my story so that it can help others in any way possible. I'm passionate about being a good friend and listening and supporting all who need it.
Let's all help each other through this.....