Jump to content
Diabetes forums

Blog xMenace

Sign in to follow this  
  • entries
  • comments
  • views

A Sign of Normalcy?

Sign in to follow this  


I forgot to eat lunch today.


I wasn't hungry, and I was busy. I never even thought about eating.


When I realized what I had done or what I had not done, at 2:10pm, my heart started racing. I went into panic mode. Anybody on rapid insulin knows what panic mode is: you've screwed up, you don't really know what you did wrong, but you know your in deep trouble! All the events of the morning went racing through my head: the coffee, the meeting, the work, the quick visits to DF and FB. I realized I did in fact still have my lunch in my bag. I also realized I had no reason to panic.


I'm getting near the end of 35 years of doing this. I think I've forgotten to eat lunch a few times, but I really can't remember. I was started on Lente insulin in 1975. I took one shot a day for probably the first x years. Then I moved to two a day. Progress! In the late 80's, around 1987, I remember discussing how silly this routine was with my doctor, and he agreed. I don't know the exact routine I was put on though. It involved Lente and Toronto (Regular). It's all a blur. I do know it wasn't until 1995 that I went on Intensive Insulin Therapy or MDI with Novalog and UltraLente. During these first 20 years skipping meals just wasn't done. Skipping meals would send me into a severe hypo. I needed to eat just as much to keep from going low as for energy or sunstainance. Even on MDI I didn't skip. I remember Mr. Endo saying I could, but I also remember somebody saying I shouldn't skip meals. I know I never had the confidence too. For some reason I always had raging hunger at meal times. The carbs? It has been ingrained in my head that missing meals is BAD!


I do know that I can now skip meals. In fact I do it all the time. I omitted breakfast three times last week. I just wasn't hungry in the mornings. But I don't forget. These were conscious decisions. I was prepared for the consequences.


There were no consequences with the planned or unplanned omissions. That's a good thing. It's a sign of control, of normalcy. We all strive for a level of normalcy in our lives.


Next time I won't panic. At least that's what I'm telling myself.

Sign in to follow this  


Recommended Comments

There are no comments to display.

Create an account or sign in to comment

You need to be a member in order to leave a comment

Create an account

Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!

Register a new account

Sign in

Already have an account? Sign in here.

Sign In Now

Important Information

By using this site, you agree to our Terms of Use.