I think that PT guy was too rough on me yesterday. My hamstring up the inside of my left leg has bruises on it and my back hurts from center down. . Did not even enjoy my shopping trip today because the pain was just never ending. I almost cried in the store for cripes sake. I did call my best friend when I got home and when she answered all I did was start crying. Nothing new since I cried all day yesterday and cried at Bible study last night. On a 1-10 today I would be a 9. Still standing but barely walking without limping. Up most of the night with spasms in both legs and feet and that hasn't happened for a long time. Then the dog has a seizure in the middle of the night so I had to get up and take her outside in the dark because that is the only thing that calms her down.
Back to the doc early in the morning. I am demanding an MRI and my insurance pays for it so what the heck is his problem. Is he paying for it? I think not! My Lortab expired in 2013 and my regular doctor will not renew it (the 90 it took me 2 years to take) because he says it will not help the pain plus it's a narcotic. Uh let me see 90 pills in 2 years does not a dope addict make. So he gives me more Xanax. 90 with a refill. Is that not an addictive drug also? DUH! I am NOT going to take Gabapentin and that is that! Today I could just sit down and never get up again. Like when I sit down it goes away. Not hardly. Lay down is a whole other story as it get 10 times worse when I lay down. Ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh . I am having a pity party for myself. I frankly do not care. Diabetes sucks, nerve damage sucks, pt sucks, doctors suck everything sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!