I know how you feel.  I have had T2D for 24 years now.  But the past year it has gotten completely out of control.  My a1c is 8.6 and it has never been that high before.  I am struggling like you but I know I need to change my eating habits and exercise more.  I walked my dog last night and felt good after.  I just have to keep it up.  Hang in there.  This is a life of ups and downs.  I cannot imagine working around food and sweets.  I cannot keep anything sweet in my house because I will eat it.  You can do this I know you can.  Start out slow and then build on that.  That is what I am trying to do.  I want to be healthy and enjoy my life.  

C

I am not a diabetic, but I am a chef and my BF is diabetic and also loves food like I do.

I am what is considered obese already, even though I eat healthy mostly, not because it's the right thing to do, but I enjoy it and it makes me feel good.

I don't feel bad when I enjoy something that is not good for me, because I go right back to my normal way of eating after the "enjoyment".

I also think it's all in the portion control and being mindful when you eat, how you prepare it and that you take time to eat instead of chowing it down like we chefs are all used to. 
I am lucky enough to have gotten out of the rat race of the H&R industry but am still working in my line of work, just a lot less stress with the emphases always being on family...not work ( I work to live not live to work!)

Maybe you are able to switch your life around by finding a lesser stressed out job in different employment? (school, institution...somewhere where you still be able to make a difference, if you love your profession as much as I do?) But you'll also have time to devote to YOUR healthy eating, develop those good habits. Walking the dog is one good thing that can lead to many other good little things and combined they will make a huge difference.

I find telling myself "I will" instead of "I should" makes a big difference!

Just remember, you are of no good to anyone if you are not taking care of yourself first and foremost. 

Believe in yourself, be good to yourself and take care of yourself. We only have one body and one chance.

Good luck with what will surely be a life change. You can, so do it.

Sunnysideup

I have found that changing one thing at a time has really helped me.  When you start looking at all the things in your life you really need to change it gets seriously overwhelming!!  I'm a type 2 for about 10 years now.  I've stayed pretty consistant at 7.5-7.7 a1c and I honestly still don't know how lol.  I eat horribly.  This past year however, I lost my medical insurance and couldn't afford to go to the doctor or get my diabetes medication (was on trajenta and glimpuride).  So, I figured I better work on how I was eating until I could get back to the doc.  The first thing I did was cut out all the full sugar pop (soda), my one true love lol.  I switched to diet because I need that caffeine crutch still.  I try to drink tea and water in there too alot more often.  The next thing I did was start saying no to most sweets.  I didn't say no to all of them, but 97% of the time I could without feeling any remorse. I finally got back into the doctor and was changed to something called Victoza.  Now, I'm eating smaller and smaller portion sizes regularly, and have lost around 30 pounds in the last 4-5 months.  Today I hit my goal of under 200 lbs!! 199.8, but I'll take it!  I'm not fully where I want to be yet, but I'm going to get there one habit at a time.  It's a marathon, not a sprint.  You can do it.