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ztazmatic

Flustrated and Worried!!

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ztazmatic

Hello everyone, I just turned 31 (thank the Lord) Yeah!! I've been diagnosts with diabetes for about 7 or 8 years now. I HATE IT, I get so angry at myself when I get sick, tired, moody, emotional, hurting (needle prick pains), and etc. I don't keep good track of my sugars like I should and I wonder am I the only one? I get so rapped up in my daily life that I forget to check or just get really busy. Oh and by the way I have 5 kids and I'm married (13 years). My family is use to me not feeling well and stuff, but I don't like it. For the past few weeks I've been dealing with sexual flustrations, so my doc gave me the blue pill to try and I don't really notice a BIG difference.

 

You know what bugs me the most? I never know if I'll feel good enough to get up and go to work or if I'll just feel irretible, groutchy and so on. I'm a God fearing man (Apostolic Christian), so I pray and go to church. However, it still gets hard sometimes.

 

Is there anyone else that has problems like I do?

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snydermom

Happy Belated Birthday ztaz! Man, I was 31 once ... way back when the Dead Sea was only sick?

 

It sure sounds like classic burn-out! Everybody gets tired of this rigamarole every so often. I'm not even the diabetic in this household - my hub is. But even I get tired of the constant what to cook, how's the meds, did he test, when's the next appt.

 

You only spoke of lousy testing habits ... what about your eating habits? You can test 12 times a day or never & it won't make much difference if you're not watching your carbs & what you eat.

 

You also didn't say what medications you take. Regarding needle prick pains, testing really shouldn't be that uncomfortable. What kind of test meter do you use?

 

Being sick, irritable and having problems in the bedroom are ALL indications of bad diabetic control. We've had them all in this house so I know what I'm talking about.

 

Eating the RIGHT food (I'm not even talking about how much) is the very most important thing you can do. It will help: 1) Put your bg's in control; and 2) Stop the problems before they start. And it sure sounds like you need to stop some problems that are already starting!

 

If you want 6 grand reasons to start paying better attention, you already gave them ... a wife and 5 kids!!!

 

Write back and let people know more about your lifestyle. You will surely get lots of good advice from the pros on this site! Beth.

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lgvincent

I can understand your feelings. I've had the disease since 1968 and I'm so tired of it. At first, I didn't check my blood sugar with any regularity and I rarely kept track of it, but something changed and I realized it was necessary to maintain good control. I would encourage you to make yourself do it. I believe it will help you to feel better. In time, it will become more natural. It usually doesn't require much time and really isn't much of an inconvenience. I try to carry my testing supplies with me although if I travel a short distance, such as around town, I usually don't take them, but I should.

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am1977

I haven't had diabetes all that long, but I can totally relate to how you feel. I'm also Type 1 and there are definitely times when I just want to totally neglect taking care of my diabetes all together and sometimes I do. I will test and do all the stuff I have to do so that I can live, but I will eat junk and I won't keep good records of bs readings and I know those are things that I need to change.

 

I guess my motivation for tryng harder comes from the fact that in the past I have always had to learn things the hard way, from when I have messed up and made mistakes. When I found out I had diabetes I kind of vowed to myself that I wouldn't do that. I would do the best I could to control it so that in the end it wouldn't come back and bite me in the butt, so to speak. I was scared and shocked to find out about all the complications of the disease and decided to do all I could to prevent it. Granted, I 'm human and still make mistakes, but I still try to do the best I can. I realize the complications can be devestating and I can't do that to myself or my family. I know that they would be affected too. So like it was mentioned, think about your family, and let them be your motivation to stay well.

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ztazmatic

Well basically I take Actos 45m, Glucophose or metformin, Neurontin (pain), viagra, and Insulin Shots 30 NPH two times a day and scaled R (10 to 25 units) once a day. My doc is also putting me on some new meds, but I haven't taken them yet. Its like very embarrasing to give this information, but it helps to talk about it.

 

My wife is such a great blessing to me, she is always asking me did I check my blood and how much I'm eating, preparing me dinners and breakfast.

 

I don't eat right all the time, but I do conciously watch what I eat.

I don't check my blood all the time like I should.

I forget to take my meds.

 

Why you ask? Well that's a good question, I get very busy and forget to do these things. I might test once or twice a day and take my meds during the afternoon. I've told myself that I'm going to get this down and do it like I was putting on my close for the day. I have said that over and over again. You know I took 30 days leave of absence from work because I was feeling so bad and my sugars were going cRaZy. During that time off I scheduled tons of doc appointments and went to counselors too. 3 weeks I didn't feel any better, but I was really watching what I ate and taking my meds on time. That was because I was off work and didn't do much of anything else but what my sugars. I have to support my family, my wife is a home mom.

 

So what am I suppose to do?

 

The last week I starting feeling much better, but then I was back to work. I've considered talking to my doc about ssi or disability until I get my health in order, but I feel like why should I be any different then anyone else. This week my sugars have been back up to the 350's - 600's.

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Mick

ztazmatic--You seem full of sincere regret, but more full of excuses. I'm the "Old Man" of this bunch--38 years with type 1. Listen to what I say--You do NOT get a day off with diabetes. You do not get any excuses with diabetes. Come on, man--I'm TOO BUSY to remember to take my meds?!? Puh-leeze!! And then your blood sugars are up in the outer stratosphere?? 300-600 is, like WAAAY dangerous. As in blindness/kidney failure/nerve damage range, and fast. No wonder you're no good in the bedroom--you've got nothing but sugar syrup running thru your veins. Of course you feel like sh!t! heck, with sugars as high as 600, you're lucky to be walking around at all... And, heck, NO, you should NOT go on disability. I work INCREDIBLY way too hard (and have since 1965!!) to control MY diabetes and stay healthy to keep working and pay taxes so that, what; Some weak-willed whiney baby like you can pull the "It's easier to control my diabetes when I don't work, I'll let someone who WILL work pay my bills" defense...!! GET A GRIP!! I'm old enough to be your father, and I damned well get my ass up every day, take ALL my dozens of medications, including 4 insulin shots a day, get myself to work and put in my time, come home and take care of my household and children, remember to take MORE medications, eat right, test 5+ times/day--and I CAN do it because I BOTHER to to it. I will NOT run around busting MY ass to do the very tough work of living with diabetes so someone who WON'T do the work can "take some time off...!!"

 

Give us all a break--stop the maddness, cut the excuses, remember to breathe, get dressed, brush your teeth, TAKE YER FREAKIN' MEDICATIONS, test your blood, get to work and do it. It's not easy. It's not fair. It doesn't GET any easier. Suck it up and be the man you're supposed to be. Are you gonna let this disease beat YOU up? I was a scrawny 12-year old when it snuck up on me and put me in a coma. I fought back hard and have not let up fighting for the past 38 years. Reclaim you self-respect and your life--get yourself in control. Live a life of discipline, strength and will-power. You CAN do this--I did it at age 12, and still do it at age 51... Your decision is--do you have the moxie to do it?

 

NO WEAKNESS!!!

Michael

 

ps--I'm not really the nasty sonofabitch that I sound like. I just wished to draw for you a picture of yourself as you appeared in your post--not prettty, is it? Do yourself a favor, color yourself joyous and successful now.

 

Namaste,

M

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lgvincent

Please refer to my previous reference to "Newhart", I agree! Ha Ha!

 

 

 

 

Uh, oh!! Better go check my blood sugar! Bye for now!!

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Shalyndria

ztaz,

Man, I can't imagine what it would've been like to have been diagnosed as an adult. I mean, kids are so resilient and adaptable and I know that I'm thankful that I was diagnosed as a child. I don't know that I would have such good control today if I hadn't GROWN UP with my disease. In that way, I think it may be a more natural way of life to me than to you. So I think it's a different situation for someone who's been diagnosed as an adult then those of us who were dx'ed as children. We may have it easier.

 

You're on the path now, though. Talking to people is the best thing you could ever do for your disease. Have you considered joining a diabetic support group? Talking face to face with a diabetic is an invaluable way of learning, empathizing, and even ranting. And hey, we all have a few good tricks when it comes to managing this disease. If you'd like, you can pm me and I'll tell you of a few good ones i've learned over the years that help with monitoring bg's.

 

Keep a smile on your face, and let us know how it goes.

 

Shay

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lgvincent

You'll feel a lot better after getting your blood sugar under control. I feel horrible when my blood sugar is high. Please keep working at good control. You'll be glad you did!

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Jon

Ztazmatic, what you need is motivation. I totally understand the frustration, and I understand how easy it is to live in denial and pretend that if you don't think about it, it isn't there. Unfortunately though, Mick is right. You are hurting yourself by not staying on top of it. You will regret it later, when your limbs are amputated, and your vision is gone.

 

I do have a request for you though. Your profile says you live in Carmichael, CA. I want you to go to this website and check out this program for type 2 diabetics. http://www.weimar.org/. I don't know if you know where Weimar is, but it is probably not more than 30 minutes from Carmichael. I used to live near there myself.

 

I understand you are a religious man. It is easy for someone who is religious to assume that whatever happens is just God's will, and if they keep praying, everything will be fine. I have also heard that God helps those who help themselves.

 

The Weimar institute offers a class called Reversing Diabetes. They help motivate you to get your diabetes under control. It is a Christian based program, so I think you will relate well. I don't work for them, and I don't mean to sound like an advertisement, but I do know somebody personally who has been through this program, and it changed his life, as well as reversed all of the symptoms of his diabetes. He eventually got lazy, and the symptoms started to return. This is not a cure, but a class on changing your lifestyle to work with your diabetes and start feeling good again. I think the class is in December or January. Please look into it. Your wife and kids will appreciate it. And Mick will appreciate his tax dollars going somewhere more useful! (Just kidding Mick):D

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Belinda

Come on get out of your slump and take care of yourself for your wife and childrens sake...eventually there maybe grandkids that will miss out on you. And for disability...you just can't get it that easily...I tried for temporary disability when I was legally blind for 2 years and guess what? NO was the response. Get with it and in control you can do this. I teach special ed and have a student with down's and diabetes and they keep control and motivation( yes even those with mild mental retardation can do it) and don't ask for SSI. Keep your chin up and do it for you and your family.

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