hi friends, i've been away again. fbg runs between 5.2 and 6.0.
Got my a1c today-- 5.0 :)
i am not sure why it isn't higher, considering since the beta blocker...my fbg tends to always be between 100-108 rather than 90 and 100. post prandial numbers take longer (an extra hour) to return to 5.6 and below. that's been really annoying. if i hit a 7 (very rarely 1 hr pp)...it will stay stuck for four hours before dropping. but seems like the average a1c wasn't too bad. all in all blood sugar ranges between 95 to 120 (max after meals). i honestly can't do any better than this. i have been so incredibly disciplined (self praise..i know...we t2ds are usually sort of blamed for the disease and assumed to be indisciplined and unmotivated...particularly those of us that are fat like myself). i am annoyed my numbers have gone up after the beta blocker, but i can't deny it has improved my quality of life tremendously now that my heart isn't racing for no reason even at rest.
like today i have palpitations (100 ish..rather than 130-140) and it's so much more bearable. i can walk around more. i can do stuff. i am still not fully recovered or normal yet. fatigue is a hugee obstacle. but as my IST (inappropriate sinus tachycardia) stabilizes, i will have more energy.
i was honestly thinking my a1c would be in the high 5s (which is a great number to be sure). but this is good..very good. another reason why i say this is because being a fat woman, we aren't taken seriously anyway. doctors assume i don't care for myself, that i would slack off with diabetes care. and these A1Cs actually keep me safe in the fatphobic medical environment. they, at least, keep doctors taking me a bit more seriously rather than giving up on my care.
thank you all for reading, for your support and encouragement. like i don't know any diabetics irl that i can meet up with. it can be lonely as heck as a younger (30) t2d. but i always have a home here with you guys. thank you for everything.